Had a terrible fight with Belendor last night. He says I'm not facing my demons, or something like that. That even if I go to China, I won't be happy there either because, something like, and I cuasi-quote:

"You're not happy *within* you. You *don't* want to be happy"

Well that's just splendid.

So, we fought.

At one point he said, I think you really ought to start taking your meds again. You're not handling yourself well. That really pissed me off because

1) I *am* already taking the fucking meds, I started taking them a week ago when they gave me those wonderful fantastic happy great news at school.

2) I am *not* depressed right now. I'm *not*. I'm just bitter and frustrated and pissed off. And I feel like that not because of *me*, but because the world hates me and it's full of morons who piss me off further.

What I mean is, I know I'm not depressed because I don't feel worthless right now, quite the opposite. I feel I'm being trampled on by the world for no good reason, and that I don't deserve that.

And *that* is totally objective, because the world indeed hates me and I have proven it.

So no, I'm not depressed. I'm pissed off.

So, we fought.