Hmmm-hmmm.

Yeah, and now that we've made up our minds.... now what?

(My mind is, save, save, save, and then see what happens)

I totally forgot that I can't save at all. Without the money, the dough, all the question is moot; I'm just stuck here.

And should I try to get more trained first? Invest in classes, courses, of whatever? Or just SAVE-SAVE-SAVE?

Anyway, I told Bel we should move out of here, find something cheaper. He wouldn't even discuss it.

Calm down, that's what I have to do. Or, should I talk to him? I don't want to. Very likely, if we start talking, I'll end up filling him in. And what will I say? Well, now that we're talking, I think I'm gonna leave you as soon as I have some savings?

That will NOT help, I think. Especially because, when he asks me why I want to do that, the most coherent thing I'll be able to come up with will be Because I haven't had oral sex in two years!

I've been thinking about it and sex is only the tip of the iceberg, but it still is one of the most intelligent things I can put my finger on. And although I'm now of the mind that it *is* important and that I want to change it, it still seems to me superbly stupid.

So, best to keep quiet.